BigCat’s Blog of DOOM

OK, this presidential stuff is still pissing me off, but I haven’t had time to do anything that I said I was going to, but oh well. So either over break, or after this damned election is over, I’m going to write something about that, and then re-index some of the other shit on my page. Also Over break I plan on doing some minor reworking of the index page, and finishing everything that I’ve planned on since I finished the present layout. BTW, I’ve been working on the menu for the new page off and on. Check it out here. Anyway, I’m out of here people, talk to you all later.

OK, so this presidential election sucks now. I think tomorrow I’m going to rearrange the “bitch” section a little and add like a separate bitching section for stuff other then school, and move some of the news to the “recent news” section. So just wait it out for all that. And everyone that is planning on going to U of I for school, and don’t have ur crap ready to mail tomorrow….tough crap, You most likely will not get in. Tomorrow is the early registration and it isn’t easy to get in after that deadline. BTW, I updated the “My Favorites” in the movies. I’m going to work on the menu soon for the page over thanksgiving break. So look for that to get more work. Anyway, I need to go to bed. Night all.

So Fuoss Says to me today “hey butthole, update your web page.” So I said sure. The low down goes like this, I’m working on this flash menu, to put the page in frames, and have a neat animation and stuff like that. You can check out the progress here, and untill then, I don’t think I’m going to be doing a whole lot. Anyway, Craig has also made a habit of making fun of me on his page, which is perfectly cool with all the staff here at BigCat Inc., mainly because I do a lot of funny shit that is just downright hallarious, so it is all good. I can’t wait to see what crazy shit he does w/ my logo next. If you want to know about the Catlin Shuffle (which is now at 100 d/ls now….hoooray), just ask fuoss to see the orignal video. ANyway, I’m out to Fat Don’s….untill we get more video, send me some update ideas.

This was some funny stuff yesterday, my skating friend Craig Fuoss fell and got his first concussion. If you have never seen someone get a concussion, your missing out. Don’t get me wrong, this is a serious thing , and Craig could have been seriously screwed up, but this was some of the funniest stuff I’ve ever seen. The silly fool was soaping this rail that made a right angle, and he was trying to jump over the angled part to the safety of the concrete sidewalk. Well of coarse this did not go as planned, the crazy idiot goes airborne like someone threw his ass off the rail, and he hits the part of the rail after the right angle w/ his shin, and it flips him face first onto the sidewalk. After we found out if he was OK, we got him up, and sat him down by us, and he just took it easy….I was wondering if he got a concussion because of the way he was acting, but I wasn’t sure. So, after a bit, he walks up to us, and says “guys, I’m being serious here, but do I have a test tonight?” We were like…..”oh crap”, cuz he had an econ test that night in like an hour or so. So the whole way to the health center he repeated the same questions, “How come my face hurts,…ur kidding, I fell,…do I have a test tonight,….where did we just come from,….Did i get the whole rail,…..Do I have a test tonight???”…that is some funny crap. Well, until I fall, and everyone can make fun of me….later.

BTW, Craig is OK, and we went soaping today, so he is better.

Word of the day is “soap”, check out the skating section…a little update on my skating adventures w/ friends…..not to mention the fact that I got busted for skating on campus….but that is another story for another day.

OK, I’m making an effort to get some of this crap done. I’m working my ass off to get through school right now, so don’t expect too much. I did happen to get the coyote ugly review up, but it is probably still a work in progress. I’m going to do a tribute to beer, cuz I think beer is good, and needs to be saluted, and I’m going to add a skating section soon.

Also I’m finishing up some ideas for banners, or logos. Thanks to Dink, who drew some of the cool stuff. Check out his page sometime, and see his art work. So stay tuned kids, and maybe if Steinberg keeps on my ass about updating it, this stuff might get done.

Also, check this out: A friend of mine, Steve, and I thought that college should be only about socializing, playing games, and drinking beer. So we are going to attempt to start our own school, where there is no bullshit homework, and on bullshit tests, just lectures, and basic homework, and just tests to see if you’ve been doing the homework. That would kick ass, and leave time for all the other shit I want to do. Oh well, maybe someday I’ll have time to work more on my page, and do fun stuff.

Well, Until I have time to work some more on this read the coyote ugly stuff, check out Dinks page, and watch for my skating section to go up, cuz that is most likely next.

All I have to say is….”Well shit.”

Here I’ve been at school for quite a while, and haven’t got crap done on my web page. I’ll try to get some of this crap up, but I can’t promise anything. I’ll let people know if I get some more stuff up. I’m hoping to do some flash work on the page so that there will be some more bells and whistles. Also I want to get some video of Craig, Dan and me skating around campus. So I’m going to add a section on the menu, and then when I get time I’ll put up an actual page. So hold on while I try to make some time for this. It is sorta hard, cuz I have like two tests this week, and two next week, but I promise that by the end of the year I’ll have at least this layout done. Also watch for some joint projects between fuoss and I. We’re talking about maybe getting something together…maybe our skating stuff will be done together.

Well, I made it here agian…I am back in the dorms. But the good news is, that I am running for floor vice president. Yes, that is true, I want to shave the whales, commit voter fraud like no one has before, and do lots of other fun things….So, I’ll keep everyone posted on how things turn out, and whether I get elected or not.

What is a defining moment. I would like to think that certain epiphanies help us to define ourselves. But I don’t think that is it. The times when you think to yourself “I think I have just found something about myself”, you are really just coming to understand what has happened to you a long time ago. I say that a defining moment is not when you realize, or notice that you are doing something different, but the conscience change. There are moments when you can pinpoint the first time you did something different, or something that has allowed you to point and say….look I’ve changed, or this is an example of me…but those aren’t it….the defining moment comes from within…and is not a moment that defines who you are, but the time that you have absorbed things until you change….that moment comes when the last thing penetrates, not your conscience so you can tell what is going on, but when you just know….something is different.

Today, I realized that I’ve been trying to fool myself for years. I’m an engineer. I’ve wanted to be certain types of an engineer for years. But today I finally said….”this is not it….this is not just what I am”, but focusing on that I see…..this has been there…maybe lying dormit…but there. I don’t want to just be an enginerd…but I want to be a person who understands people. And I want to act. I want to dance, sing and play more sports. But today was not that moment. That has been there. The moment of realization is not a defining moment. This was an epiphany. A realization of what I am, and how things really are. Not something that will define who I am, but just a better understanding of who I have been.

To me…a defining moment is really just something that sets what will happen to you in the future. Something that “defines” you life. Like when you get a job, or when you realize you want to marry someone. Or better yet, when you realize that this job is not the right one. These are conscience decisions, something that you do that will define who you become…but not defining what you want and who you really are…just what you look like to the world. It may affect these deeper, inner feelings, and vice-versa, but still they are not the same.
Today, the day that I am about to go home for a few weeks before school starts, I have a better understanding of both these “defining moments” and these deeper inner feelings of who I want to become..and this will affect my path….

The only other thing I realized today is, this too shall pass. No matter what bad stuff happens to you. If you deal with it as it comes, and then try to live with it, and just keep on keeping on……one day, one fateful day, you will walk outside, and the birds will sing, and the sun will still shine, and you might forget, if only for a second, everything bad that has happened to you. And that is one of those defining days….the day that you realized something that has been inside of you all along. These who’s and these great revelations are what make us human, and individuals. And without these things, we never grow as people, and never get anywhere.

Man, sometimes I even scare myself with this stuff.

Yesterday was what I would like to call a “Five Star Day”. Now for you underprivileged people who haven’t talked to me in a while, you need references to what “Five Star” is. Simply put, it replaces the word “cool”, or “awesome”. But it has a special connotation. Not just anything that is cool or awesome can be “Five Star”. It is best to think of the restaurant or hotel rating system. A super fancy hotel or restaurant gets a “five star” rating from like AAA or something, and that means it is exclusive, expensive, and really just the place to be. Now take that sort of feeling….like your sitting in a five star restaurant, and you feel great, cuz this place is so fancy. Now that take that, and apply it to an entire day. My day was that good yesterday, and I’m going to tell you about it.

First, I woke up pretty tired, but I crawled out of bed, and got ready to go to class. Now this isn’t any ordinary day of class, I had my final today. So that should suck right???, but no, I made all the lights on the way there….which in Champaign is simply amazing in itself. While driving there, aside from noticing that I made all the lights, all I could think of is how under prepared I was, because the night before I got like a million important phone calls, and didn’t study as much as I wanted to. But I started taking the final anyway, and it took a few minutes to Jump start my brain, but when I started to get into it, I realized that this wasn’t as hard as I thought it was going to be. So when I finished I had that relieved feeling, because I know I didn’t do that bad on it. So I went downstairs in parkland to the bookstore to sell back my books. Now, I payed like 150 bucks for books, and I thought that was crap, and at U of I, if you buy like 150 in books, ur going to get like maybe 50 of it back. But at parkland, that is not so, I got like 90 for my books. That is great. So, I’m feeling pretty good, and I decide today is a good day to eat dinner out. Usually I don’t do that, because it gets expensive, but I felt like eating greasy meat today. So I pull into McD’s, and just as I pull in I remember “they have the McRib right now”, and that was just great, because I love the McRib. So, I have my McRib, and I’m heading home, and I pull up to a stop light, and look at the sky, and it is just nicer then a whores ass outside, the sun was shining, a few fluffy clouds waft by, it was great. Then I turned up my radio just a tad, to hear what they were announcing as the next song, but it just faded into “Da, Da, Da”, a great song…especially since I just turned it up, and started bobbing my head and chanting “Da, Da, Da” along with the song. But wait, that isn’t all. After a brief period at work, I went home, changed cloths, and went to a sneak preview of “Coyote Ugly”. Kick ass in itself. But then, we went to Gibson, and found beer. And then we drank that beer. And it was good. Then I crashed at a friends house and all was good.

That ladies and gentlemen was a “Five Star Day”. The only way it could have got any better, is if I got laid by a hooters girl after the movie…cuz they came to see the movie…LOL…but seriously…that was a damned good day.

Well, I got to go have steaks at dirks everyone….c-ya Saturday at skateland.

Hey kiddies, for those of you who actually visit my web page, and might care, I’m going to do a massive overhaul. It is going to called my betasite, and sooner or later here it will become my real site.

Well, life goes on, I’m recovering from my “worst day ever”. I’ve drank too much lately, and as I expected, it did no good in relieving any emotional pain, but did make for some damned good times. So remember kids, don’t drink to get drunk, but instead, drink to make an ass out of yourselves, pass out, and laugh about it later….if you remember it.

Well….this has got to be one of the worst 24 hr periods I’ve ever had. (so far anyway) Last night, my girlfriend of 4 years decided to tell me that she needed time for us to separated. Wonderful! Great! Grand!….that really fucking blows. After four years, she decides this now. I mean, I thought it was rough when I went to college, because everything was changing, and we had a tough time with it, but for some reason when she moves out and gets a job, it bugs her out, and she needs time apart. WELL…..If that wasn’t enough, I’m cruising along to my summer class. (Why I decided it was necessary to attend class after an evening like that, I’ll never know), but I’m going a little fast, and I didn’t realize it, so I look down, and I see that I’m speeding….let my foot off the accelerator, and a cop pulls out of a side street and pulls me over. I got a 42 in a 30. So that is 75$ down the drain. And, this will jack up my insurance. If I would have looked down like a block before that, I would have been alright, but I cant fucking win, so screw it. Well, All I can say is “if you see me at Sibley on the 4th, I will be intoxicated”

Thank you, and goodnight.

Why does summer school suck so much?

I’ll tell you why this sucks. It is simple. Just break the words appart… summer … school…. school in the summer….hmmm….that sucks. This roughly comes down to 2 and a half hours a day in a classroom, and several hours of homework a night. And the worst part is that I got a teacher who is teaching the matrix stuff from high school, which is boring in itself, and she is assigning ass-loads of homework. If it isn’t bad enough that we have like this stupid matrix stuff that takes a lot of paper and a lot of boring algebra, but we have like 30-40 problems of that shit every night. I don’t need this kind of crap. I’m trying to work 40 hours a week, and go to school. I should have taken a class in some humanity instead of math. God, I hate school.