The Many Faces of ME.

Well, I wonder sometimes if anyone even reads my webpage….but I figure those who do are my friends in some respect, or at least aquaitances or some sort. At any rate you’ve met me. And me, is precisely what I want to talk about on my little personal microphone to the rest of the world here. For those of you who know me, I mean really know me, you’ve seen my ups and downs, highs and lows, and lefts and rights. You know that sometimes I’m a stubborn jackass who wouldn’t back down to save my life, and sometimes I’m very open minded, and willing to live and let live….and you know that I hate people who drive like they think they are mario andretti and don’t know how to work a standard transmission. But more specifically I would like to break down the layers of this onion a little further.

For those of you who have seen me around different ‘groups’ of friends you know I tend to behave differently around different people. My x-girlfriend likes to make mention (we still r cool, and we’re talking the other day) that it will be interesting when my present girlfriend meets some of my close friends. I like to think that when I act different around different people I’m not being “fake” like some of you are thinking right now. But if you know how guys act when they are just hanging out being guys, and you couple that with current girlfriend hasn’t really been around guys being guys much (she was homeschooled and has only sisters) I tend to agree that this may be a cause for concern. I know that every guy out there is always a little different, but most people percieve that I deviate even further from that norm. I like to think that is really a big part of who I am. I’m constantly striving to be a person who gets along well with the people around me. I sorta think of it as a personal mission. So when I’m around certain people, I have found that I enjoy the dynamic created, and adjust accordingly to let myself have the most fun, and make my pressence the most entertaining or meaningful that I can. So I feel that like the onion metaphor, when I’m around people your seeing a different layer…not that I’m trying to be fake just to make people happy or something…. But I enjoy the way this system works for me….it isn’t well thought out, it is really involuntary. That is why sometimes when my wits aren’t about me, I’m sorta cold around the friend of a friend kind of person. I’m sorta working out in my head how this person is going to affect the person I’m dealing with, and I don’t want to upset them, or not enjoy the company of my friend and their friend. But this got me into trouble a while back. As some of you know, my roomates girlfriend thought I hated her or something cuz I was being quiet all the time she was around….when in actuallity, I didn’t have time to get to know her very well, and I didn’t know if I would piss her off or not if I just treated her like I treat my roomate (probably not a good idea anyway), so she percieved it as me hating her. But really I think she is great, and having just a little time to get to know her better is something that I enjoyed when she visited my house w/ my roomate over last christmas break, and I’m looking forward to having her come to visit and participate in my grand adventure home.

So, if you ever think i’m generally being stupid, or acting strange ask me why, and if I say….”I don’t know, this is just how I am” understand that I’m really just being different to enjoy myself…but I’m still the same guy, same beliefs, same political viewpoints, same major, same hobbies and fav. sports, and same hooded sweatshirt.

Thank you for your time…and have a great night.