Well, day two is come and gone.
It would be nice if I got a good sense of when I can stop this fast. But basically I heard (I think) that I need to just deal with it, and be happy…even rejoice that I get to suffer like this. So, besides that I basically heard “Suck it up, I’ll let you know when you can stop. Get over yourself, it really isn’t that bad.”
Well, that being said, I have some other things I’ve learned.
1. Drinking a double stout and an old engine oil stout for dinner is cheating. I was hoping it wasn’t but I was wrong. That was three hours or better of not hungry.
2. Going to poker night is good, going to poker night while fasting and everyone else is drinking beer and eating chips is not so good. At least I won my money back. I’m getting better at poker…and I have some strategies on how to change up my play for next week….got to keep them guessing.
3. Without discipline you will drink too much stuff. Like today I almost killed one of those big plastic things of V8, two large cokes, and a can of Mt. Dew….for the record….I’m still FREAKING STARVING!
4. Work is a lot harder while fasting….plan for this to be the case…don’t wait for your boss to give you hard work to do…like cold calling people to try to sell them more computer stuff. That happened to me today…it sucked.
All in all this is going pretty good. I am grouchy, but actually less upset than I was when I started. I had one of those pissed off moments at God for being here w/o my old crew to watch the Super Bowl. Not that anything is wrong w/ my current crew, but I really just missed my old one….and I see these guys a lot…when I had seen my old crew this much I was kinda tired of seeing them too.
So, after a lot of bitching on the way to work and throughout the day, I had an awesome fun time relaxing at poker night, and I’ve been praying more today instead of just bitching. And that is good. I guess I’m kinda getting psyched up spiritually for our service.
Oh, before I forget. Why do people fast? I was saying to Caleb that I thought the big part of fasting was that it was supposed to be a reminder to pray every time you think about being hungry, and he said that for him that bit was only about a 1/3 to a 1/4 of it. But he never said what the rest was (or I forgot or didn’t hear cuz it was loud). So I got to thinking. I heard someone say it is kind of a way petitioning God. I don’t really like that much, so I’m trying to stay away from that mind set…I don’t see it leading down positive paths. So what other reasons do you fast for? What do you usually get out of it? If you don’t get anything out of it, why do you do it?