When you reach into the empty toolbox you have to believe that you are going to pull out the right tool you need for the job…not because you found it, but because God gave it to you.
Remember…
Dream Big.
Remember…
You can’t call your family a bunch of fucking pricks to your parents face on thanksgiving weekend when you aren’t going to see them for a long time again.
This may result in them ganging up on you until you cry in Arbys….not good. At least I know I feel worthless because I feel disrespected, ignored, and like I can’t do any of the things I’m gifted at here right now. Maybe someday people will listen to me and remember I’m trained as a problem solver and I’m gifted at it. Until then…I should probably find a way to not keep putting my worth on those gifts. And to shut up.
Remember….
Before any ministry I ever do, I need a pep talk, that will help immensely
….right now I think that will be the third lecture Morphew did at the regional conference….I listened to that in the car, and it made me tingle like it did when I was there. After I get tired of that I’m sure I can find something as encouraging and empowering to replace it.
Remember…
My weird aunt Dorthy, who I love, has the wierdest gifts I ever seen, and in the prophetic and healing she is probably more gifted than any one person I’ve met personally…..except maybe John Paul Jackson, but he has yet to back up his claims for me.
She has those Dave Newcome freaky eyes sometimes when she looks at you, like she can see right through everything you are, and then she can touch you in some weird ways and you feel better…and it isn’t all her massage therapy training. She taught me some wierd energy channeling kind of thing. It was really simple, and I could do it first shot. I almost put Lauren to sleep while I was driving the car just by focusing energy from one part of my body to my hands and then touching her head. Maybe I’m gifted like Dorthy. The problem with all this…aka…why is it freaky when I see wierd stuff at church all the time? Well, she basically believes in very little of the Bible, thinks of God just as energy, and says we dont’ need forgiveness of our sins because God wouldn’t judge us. But she is undeniably gifted in the phrophetic, healing, and getting words of knowledge in general…which could be prophetic. She kinda says she can manipulate and control this healing gift, and she looks at like channeling energy to people in places where they hurt…making connections, being a conduit for Gods energy. Very new age, and seems to fly in a lot of my kingdom theology understanding about not turning the gifts into a formula. But it works for her. And I could do it first shot, just by concentrating, focusing on God / HS, and trying to send that feeling / energy towards my hands.
I’m going to explore this more tomorrow at church group. Probably Lauren and I will spend a good bit of time praying before hand, because if this could be something useful, I want to try to use it ASAP, and if it is something bad…(i.e. messing with the wrong powers….which I’m pretty certain Dorthy has done at least a little of that) I want to know before I mess with it…and I want to know ASAP.
dreum says
Sorry to hear you’re fighting with your family.
As for the channeling thing it is something I’ve dabbled with a little bit and it seems to work like you said. Funny, I was watching a tai chi program yesterday and was thinking about doing this very thing. I think its pretty obvious that some kind of “energy” is there. Obviously, the chinese have been doing this for many years, yet there isn’t a whole lot of it mentioned in the bible that I can remember. The only one I can think of is from Luke 9:40. It is where the woman who bleed for 12 years came and touched Jesus’s cloak and was instantly healed. In verse 46: “But Jesus said, ‘Someone touched me; I know that power has gone out from me.'” So this energy is definitely something you could feel.
I know at the vineyard they often say we are the rusty water pipe that God uses to pour His Spirit through to other people. So I wonder…does that mean we could possible do things to become better pipes? I know without God we couldn’t do anything, but this stuff really intrigues me. It makes me want to go learn tai chi to help me become a better pipe. 🙂
dwchang says
Sorry to hear about you fighting with your fam. I hope you guys are talking now and can work through this :-/
bigcat2k says
It’s OK, I ended up talking to them for a good long while before I left.
IM me today…I wanted to send you those kingdom of God sermons I was talking about.
divisionbyzero1 says
I think your aunt is doing something called reiki. It’s a New Age practice that I had some contact with myself some years ago. I would highly recommend you stay away from it and stick to the usual manner of prayer over someone who is sick or ill. It’s all of about 2 inches away from crystals and other “energy” and “universal life force” crap.
A quick google search provided the following for your own inquiries, I’ll just link two:
A reiki information website (pro)
Christian Answers for the New Age (con)