So I am prepping a lesson for small group today, and it occurs to me that while there have been times where this can be a real drag, right now I really miss doing it on a regular basis.
I like talking about issues I’ve been thinking about in the Bible, and getting a amped up discussion going around the things that get me amped.
I like teaching, even though I often suck at it, I really like it.
Lately I’ve really been into Piper’s sermons on worship. I really like his idea of “Christian Headonism” (did I spell that right). His websites Tag line is “God is most glorified when we are most satisfied in him.”
The reason this has been big for me is that I haven’t felt satisified all that much for the last few months. I know that boils down to me needing to be better about some things, like worshiping God in all of my life in all situations, and pressing more on towards his goals instead of my own, but still sometimes I feel like there could be more satisfaction brought from God to me.
So, I’m going to talk a little about that in small group tonight. Should be a good time. I’m not sure how I’m going to break this up and focus on one particular aspect of life and scripture. But I got like 100 million application questions I can ask, just from the thinking I’ve been doing lately about this topic.
Also, I’ve been thinking. If I really like leading this capacity, and I do more scripture reading more regularly when I’m responsible for other people, should I be pressing more to try and squeeze my way into more leadership situations instead of sitting back and letting other people take care of stuff. Or, should I be working harder on being more consistant in those areas even when I’m not directly in leadership.
I’m only torn on this because it seems apparent that at some point before too long (six months maybe) we will have more than enough people for more small groups than we can handle, so we will be training new leaders to do more stuff around chruch. So at that point the likelihood of me not leading a small group is slim. So, should I focus more on being more disciplined even when I’m unmotivated now? I think the answer is probably yes, but I still have to wonder if I was made to function in a different situation than I am currently in…and should push for the situation to change.
That is kind of how I feel about work. My current work situation is draining, and difficult for me. And I know that in the right situation work can be energizing, and enlivening. A good job sitation….one that fits, not just something cushy…can make the rest of life better, and make you more motivated to do good things. Sometimes I think about my capacity to lead like that. If I’m not, I feel out of place, If I am I’m mostly happy until I screw something up (which is why I’m glad I remember to pray more when I’m leading).
Anyway, besides that stuff, I was talking to Paul monday about my IE woes on my website. And he looks at it, and says “you know you could use a table there.” And I said “tables suck, and are so clunky, plus the internet is getting away from that kind of layout.”
His brilliant response was “Yeah, but tables work right in IE, and look the same in every browser.”
I was ownzored by old technology. I’m gonna switch it to a table tonight, even though I got it looking perfect in Firefox this morning before I left for work.