Monthly Archive for April, 2004

Stupid SQLite

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I use SQLite to maintain the database for my blog. It is annoying sometimes when I could be using the very much more powerful MySQL, but I’m too cheap to opt for the extra money to add that ability to account. I feel like using MySQL for a blog database is like trying to swat a fly with a bazooka. If it came free with my site hosting, sure, I would use it, but it costs more money, and if I ran a store, or did something more interesting then blogging I would use it. But I don’t.

So my choices for storing my database for my blog would be berkelyDB, or SQLite. I choose SQLite because it was installed and looked simpler to use. It has now caused me two headaches. One when installing the plugin that allows for threaded comments. That is what makes the “reply to this” link work. I had to learn all this specific syntax and crap to add columns to my database. It took a long time, and it sucked. Now, because of the way SQLite handles files, I had a “locked” database for several days. I actually had stuff I wanted to write about. But the damned thing wouldn’t let me post anything at all. So after a few hours of pouring over the internet I start to find some things out. Maybe the file was locked using an operating system call? Maybe the program wrote a lock bit into the file header? Can I copy the file to a backup file, then delete the old one, clearing an operating system file? (that didn’t work) Maybe I just suck at Unix/Linux/BSD? In the end, I get one little clue how to fix this “locked” database. After many “SQL Error: Database is locked” messages, and much hair pulling (which reminds me, I need a hair cut) I find on a page describing all the commands you can throw at this highly versatile database software, a command description. This description says something to the effect of “This command commits any data created to the database, writes it to the table, writes the file, unlocks the database and deletes the journal file.” Sure enough there is a file called mtdb-journal. mtdb is the name of my database. I deleted the stupid journal file, and it !Wala! The system is working again.

So, now this is officially documented, and in a couple of days will be on google, so any idiot like me who can’t figure out how to unlock his database when SQLite takes a crap, can now have one more simple option to try.

Sometimes I feel like a huge nerd when an array of google searches can’t fix my problem. You know it’s bad when your the first person on the net to break non-beta software. Maybe I’ll start typing all of my real life (read not computer) problems into google and see which ones it brings up links for that can help me fix them. Man, that idea sounds like a bad sermon refrence….I hope my Dad doesn’t read this.

Holy Crap this is cool!

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TI made their electrical engineering software free for the TI-89, and it comes free on the TI-89 titanium.

To put this in perspective this was 100$ calculator software that does a ton of EE stuff for you with almost no work. There are circuit solvers, fourier calculations…just awesome stuff. Man, I hope this makes Bode plots for you, because that would be sweet…since that is in my current class right now.

Mark you and anyone who is a young ECE type must get the TI-89 titanium if you don’t already have the 89, and if you do have an 89 already, download that software. The calculator page is here

That is all for now….that and I woke up very late today, and I’m still tired…that sux.

Thoughts on the Church and Homosexuality

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I was walking home today, pondering some recent developments in the Methodist Church, and some things I read yesterday at Christianity Today concerning homosexuality. I got to thinking a lot about the female Methodist pastor who professed her homosexuality to her bishop. If you want to read about her judicial trial (a trial to see if she could keep her ordination, i.e. her job as a pastor in the Methodist Church) and how she didn’t end up being convicted, you can see that here. Also check out:
“Dammann verdict: What happens next?”
“Jury issues statement on decision in Dammann case”
“Dammann trial verdict reflects complexity of case”
“Presiding officer says trial was fair, honorable”
And then it is important to read the responses, both for and against to understand what I’m talking about here…..which you should note that the Bishops (read people in charge of whole states or large portions of states, and they don’t have cardinals or a Pope, so that is as high as it gets) are overwhelmingly against this decision. So here are some of those articles:
“Commentary: Why do we play with words?”
“Commentary: Verdict represents God doing a new thing”
“Individual bishops voice disappointment at verdict”
“United Methodist bishops vow to uphold church law”

You get all that? Good, then we can continue.
In a nutshell, all that stuff says that there is a fraction of the UMC that supports homosexual marriage, and in the practice being accepted among clergy. But, the majority, a rather large majority is still against this practice, and there is a book that is used to supplement the Bible in how they (I almost put we, but while the book is pretty good for me personally I have to remember I’m no longer Methodist) in this time, are to live as United Methodist Christians. And while it has some loose wording for what the church believes about peoples lifestyles it is very very specific about the clergy and the standard they are held to. The woman in question was acquitted of any charges after she openly declared she was in a long term homosexual relationship, and she had participated in a marriage ceremony. This is clearly against the United Methodist book of Discipline, and it creates a problem. I personally think the issue is being forced by a region that is traditionally part of the minority in the UMC right before the quadra-annual General Conference where the book of discipline can be changed, so that it can be a heated debate when all 1000 and some internation delegates get together and talk about it.

I’m gonna post an extended entry here, because this is just background information for what I want to talk about and it could get long, but I want people who are interested to know that this isn’t a Ben bashing the United Methodist post, it is Ben commenting on the state of modern (or post-modern if you want to confuse how I’m using the word modern) Church.
Continue reading ‘Thoughts on the Church and Homosexuality’

Stupidity and Tiredness

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I’m in the middle of writing a paper discussing Aristotle’s views on slavery (he was for slavery) and I find myself bored, and tired. I’m tired because I waited for a long while to work on the paper, which is my own fault. I’m bored because slavery is such a non-issue today for me. I mean it is obvious that slavery is bad, no one should own another person. Even if you put all your human rights issues aside and look at it as a socio-economic system it is flawed. The biggest flaw is that in a system that starts out with people who are slaves because they are mentally incapable of making good decisions for themselves (the reason Aristotle says slavery is a natural thing), genetics will undoubtedly create a set of people who can govern themselves and be responsible enough to participate as a voting citizen. But that person will remain trapped within the slave system and would be unlikely to get out to participate in society at large.

To cure my boredom I was going to try to spend a page or so arguing about why Aristotle is right and some form or slavery should exist. I was going take some genetic superiority approach, and then make some third reich joke, and get back to why he is wrong and slavery is bad. But at this point I’m too tired to know if I can pull that off and make it funny enough to get the TA’s attention, and I’m afraid it will just end up sounding stupid or “insensitive” so now I’m sitting here, bored, and trying to waste time until I come up with a good way to continue from where I am sans the Nazi jokes. (did you know that the word sans is a preposition…new to me…yeah for www.m-w.com for making sure I was using the word correctly)

Well, back to my paper….tomorrow I’ll post a thing I have half written right now about homosexuality and the church. Don’t worry, it isn’t to homophobic, it is mostly about how to love those people, and the tone of the modern church concerning homosexuality.

Lunch Today

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As usual, we will be at Legends at 1pm. If you want a good burger and fries for 3.99 come on down. Also, you can hang with Rob, Dirk, Seth, Art and me, which is always cool.

Be there, or you’re lame.

More stuff on throat singing

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I was annoying Lauren last night with my attempts at bringing out the harmonics in my voice, and I was somewhat successful. But I got to thinking that there has to be some better websites for this kind of thing. And I found a good one.
http://www.khoomei.com
This guys site has good mp3 examples of people actually singing, and using the overtone singing in songs with instruments, and the guy is from Minneapolis …. a sign perhaps?. I have to say that I find this completely fascinating, and I am going to endeavor to learn how to do this stuff, even if it means annoying all my roommates, because this is just plain cool. Also, while I think I can bring out a soft overtone, I am finding it difficult to make it loud enough to stand out, or I feel like instead of isolating an overtone and amplifying it with the shape of my mouth, I’m actually whistling by using the back of my tongue to keep just a small amount of air passing by it…maybe that is what they do, but I am still working on it. I really love the “sygyt” style. It sounds like someone is playing a flute…thats cool. Well, now I must go to work, later people.

I’m out of shape….duh.

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I skated to work today, and my ankles are killing me, and my calves, hams, and quads are burning. I remembered just how bad my bearings have got beat up since I got those skates, and I remembered just how out of shape I am. I felt like the wind was blowing me backwards at times. So I think I may overhaul my skates sometime next month. I have been saying for a while that I could try the carburetor cleaner trick to clean out the bearings, but I think it is time for new wheels and bearings. I’ve had those on there since I got those skates, and I got them at the beginning of my college career almost five years ago. I skated to a skatepark in California when I was there. It was only a mile or a little more, but by the time I got there, I was wiped out, so I didn’t skate the park, I just watched the kids there skate, and rested, and then skated back. I feel kinda bad because if I had gone to California about a year earlier I would have been all over the place looking for parks to skate. It sucks, I used to be good at skating, not just in better shape, but better at using my skates. I started hitting hand rails on my skates about sophomore year, and I used to use my soap shoes for that too. Now I need new shoes, not because my grind plates on them have worn out from using them to grind rails and curbs, but because the foot wear from just walking around on them has caused the bolts holding the plates on to be ground down past the head and the plates are about to fall off. On top of that I can’t get new ones, even though I wouldn’t since I never use them anymore, because the company is out of business. I really like my shoes, just as shoes, because they are really durable. I heard shoes made for BMX riding, and skateboarding are pretty tough too, but while I used to wear airwalks all the time because they were comfortable I never found them to be extremely durable and they were supposed to be skating shoes. Maybe Vans and some of those other companies make a tougher shoe. I like shoes that last.

Anyway, besides being out of shape, I found this article that talks about bio-tech companies shipping stuff off shores to make drugs cheaper, and this was supposed to be an area that could be the next savior for IT people since Bio-tech is such a hot area now. Oh well, one less job I won’t be getting at the end of the summer. And I wouldn’t have minded working for pharmaceutical company on their production lines….I bet they have a great deal on perceptions with their health plans.

Well back to work. Have a good one folks.

I am going to learn Tuvan Throat Singing

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I heard that some people from around church were watching a DVD of Bela Fleck and the Flecktones (which is a totally awesome group…if you haven’t heard them, you should check them out) and I got to thinking about the time I watched that DVD and they had a tuvan throat singer on it. If you don’t know anything about throat singing, check out this website which is some white guy who went to Asia and studied how to be good at this kind of singing. He has some samples on there, and you may need a little intro before listening to them, because this isn’t your moms normal old music. This type of singing is something I learned about back in Music 133, and it involves a single person producing at least two and sometimes more pitches by utilizing the shapes their mouths, throats and vocal cords can make to produce harmonics. On some of the samples on the guys site it may sound like there is a really loud high pitched ringing…that is the high harmonic that most of our voices produce when singing, but somehow these guys learn how to make the shape of their mouths and throats amplify this sound. I don’t like the ones where the guy produces two really low growling notes, and if you look at his page titled “overtone singing” the one labeled “kargyraa” is like that and I don’t think it is very good. But to listen to the other ones you need to know that there is a rather loud low tone held by the singer and if you listen carefully (carefully for a couple and it is quite obvious for the others) you can hear a melody over the top of the low note. The best example in my opinion was the “two cavities” one and the “sygyt” one. The “two cavity” one sounds like a scale being sang over the low note, he goes up and down the scale, the “sygyt” one is some kind of a song. The “one cavity one isn’t as clear, but the first few notes have a solid overtone over the low note, it isn’t as high or loud as the first two. Be warned some of these files have a really high pitched overtone and it could hurt your ears when you check it out, especially if you are sensitive to really high pitches. The two I mentioned from that site are pretty safe. If you are having trouble hearing the higher pitches on those two try closing your eyes and listening…it always seems to sharpen my hearing when I close my eyes.

Anyway, this isn’t something that I expect everyone to be interested in, but it fascinates me, so I thought I would share. Also, if you hear me making weird noises, it is because I’m trying to learn how to do this kind of thing….if it drives you nuts…sorry, but deal, because I think it is cool.

Oh, and before I wrap this up, here is an article on the science behind how this stuff works.

I hope someone out there thinks this is as cool as I do…if you do, call me and maybe we can try to learn how to do this together.

And that concludes another segment of “Ben’s quest to learn how to do a little of everything”
Next week, I’ll attempt to learn to drive a combine. (It can’t be that hard…right?)

Looking Up

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Things are indeed looking up today. I’ve grilled dinner for the last two days in a row…if I could go to the first part of the Kill Bill party at my house it would be three…but alas, I’m forced to eat rabbit food because of Liz’s vegetarian persuasion on our Minneapolis group….or more appropriately because Lauren doesn’t want to cook two separate things and I’m the only one adverse to the absence of meat in my dinner….maybe I’ll eat before I go, hmm…I will have to think on this thought later.

Anyway, back on topic, grilling is good, and I’ve been doing it a lot lately…and that is good. Secondly, I took two tests this week, I’m not terribly pleased with the outcome of either one, but I don’t think I bombed either…I might not hit average on either one, but I don’t think I failed them either. That is good.

This morning the electrician came and fixed the outlets that died….this is good, because it means the beer fridge is working and the beer will be cold in plenty of time for porch sitting this afternoon, which I will talk more about later. It turns out that the outlet that caused the problem is the GFI (Grounded Faulting Interrupt) outlet that I installed over a year ago, apparently I flipped in the Lead (hot coming from the fuse box) and the Load (wires going to other outlets on the circuit) which is funny, because I just followed the flow that was there before, but whatever, it’s fixed now.

I don’t have to cook tonight, Lauren got some stuff for a vegetable casserole, which looks pretty good but not as good as the steak I bought the other day (and planned on cooking tonight because I forgot about the team meeting where we eat together), so I don’t have to make food for ten people. Which is awesome, cuz I don’t know what I would have cooked.

I have beer!

I got to watch Kill Bill Volume 1 on Wednesday, so I am ready for the movie even though I can’t watch it tonight with everyone else.

Kill Bill Vol. 2 tonight…..rock on. And I am going to that. Jeff, if the meeting goes past 9:20 I’m leaving anyway, just a heads up.

Today is beautiful. Could it be any nicer outside. It’s almost perfect. Not to hot, not to cold, a slight breeze to keep you cool when your in the sun, but not so much that you have to fight against it to get anywhere.

Girls seem to not care about their absence of clothing around these times…while a part of me would like to say that I particularly enjoy this fact, the other part of me is about to explode from the sexual tension in my life. So I’m about to go crazy, and then I feel bad if I even remotely enjoy the scenery around me. I swear, sometimes it sucks to be a Christian. And I still have 126 days for this crappy feeling to build. It feels almost like an embolism in my brain is about to burst open, and there is no way to release the pressure on the damned thing for that long, so it just keeps building and building, and it sucks. AHHHHHHHHH!!!!

But at least it is nice outside, so I can go for a walk, or skate, or sit on my porch..or whatever, to try to relax and calm down….maybe I really need a cold shower in my house instead of walking around outside.

Well, plans for this frustratingly beautiful day include going home after work, borrowing someones guitar, going outside and trying to learn a little, drinking a beer, and when I get bored with trying to play the guitar, I’ll bring my laptop out and listen to MP3’s, and perhaps cook some meat so I’m not forced into eating strictly vegetarian stuff this evening…make it like a two course dinner…one at home, one at Jeff and Q’s.

So life is looking up now….it’s always better when the sun is shining and it isn’t cold outside. Except for the sexual frustration, but that is my own business, and that creates no hard feelings between me and the sun, it’s not his fault.

Ups and Downs

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The Bad

I couldn’t sleep last night. For the last few weeks I’ve either been sleeping a lot and waking up tired or not sleeping much because of obligations…or I’ve had insomnia. This is sucking a lot. I don’t have any clue what is going on. I’ve been taking vitamins a lot, I’ve been trying to regulate my sleeping schedule back to something actually resembling a schedule. So, this morning I had a test, I was studying for the test last night and I decided at about 1:30 it was time to hit the hay, and I would wake up at about 6:30 and start studying again. But 4 am came around and I was still awake…it sucked. Then as irony would have it the garbage guy picking up the neighbors trash woke me up about ten minutes before my alarm went off. That sucked. I didn’t get to watch all of Kill Bill last night, which Rob bought, and the funny thing about that is that Lauren did watch all of it…and I think she didn’t hate it..but none the less, I didn’t get to see more then 30 minutes of it. The test this morning wasn’t good. I probably won’t hit average, but as long as I’m within a standard deviation I think it will be OK. I still have a test on Friday, I have to do well on it because I sucked it up on the last one in that class, and I’m supposed to think of something to cook for Friday, so that is going to be a crowded day.

The Good

The birds are singing, it’s beautiful outside, I’m home to relax, and I have some wiggle room in my schedule today so I can get some sleep and skip some classes.

So the schedule for today was
Get up early, take the test
Go to my next two classes, one of which I have that test in on Friday
Go to work
Study for my next test
Go home, eat, watch Smallville, study more, then sleep.

The new schedule is:

Skip class, eat, sleep, wake up and study for my test
Watch the new Smallville episode, study more, sleep.

Anyway, that is my interesting bit of ups and downs for now.

Bored

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Well I have a test tomorrow, and I’m sitting here waiting for some old homework solutions to print out, so I figure I should type a little.

First off, Kill Bill party can be co-ed, but I wouldn’t advise it, as I will most likely be acting like an idiot…which I am want to do from time to time…and we are going to see a very cool movie…which makes it more likely.

Also, before the Kill Bill thing, I have a meeting…but the bummer is that I am scheduled to bring a main dish…I wonder if that is a “Ben and Lauren” kind of thing, or just a “Ben” thing. Maybe I’ll get Lauren to cook for me anyway, since I am super busy this week….or maybe I’ll just KFC it up. I don’t think anyone would care as long as I found something vegetarian for Liz too.

Why do tests have to suck so much…why does my department suck so much. Why does my apartment suck so much…or house that is.

Last night Rob and I tried to hook the computer to the TV to watch Naruto, this resulted in a series of outlets going out….I have no idea how they went out since the TV and computers outlets still work, and two outlets down they just stop working….and the computer stopped turning on. I think I broke the power button, but I’m not sure, and I don’t have time to fix it this week…which makes me feel bad about breaking it. I’m not exactly sure how the outlets stopped working, or how the computer button broke, but none the less, they don’t work. This also sucks because the wedding invitations in their latest updated form are on that computer, which means I can’t get them off until I fix it…not good, plus I was going to turn them into png’s or gif’s and put them on the web for people to see.

ECE sucks

And so does Rob

Do you know that it is very hard to make small things out of aluminum if they have to be strong….that was a lot of wasted time at the grinder at work last week, oh well.

Done printing…off to grainger until dinner time, then back to grainger…I’m starting to hate that place.

Kill Bill Vol. 2 Party

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Well, it is that time. Kill Bill Vol. 2 is being released in theaters on Friday, and we know that men must assemble, drink beer, eat meat, and go watch gallons of blood spewing across the screen. To that end we are inviting anyone who wishes to watch Kill Bill Volume one and two, come over to the house at 6 pm to cook meat and begin consuming beer. Then promptly at 6:30 we will start watching Volume one on DVD. I will be attending a meeting for the church plant team, so Rob and Seth are taking charge of this part. Then after I get done with my meeting and the people at my house are done with the first movie, we will be going to see volume two in theaters.

You have no excuse, this is an event of monumental proportions, laced with testosterone, and sprinkled with beer, so you must be there. I have announced this fun far in advance, so prepare. If you haven’t seen the first movie, be at our house at 6. If you have seen it, you don’t have to be at the house till later, but be there before 9:30, so we can proceed to the movie.

That is my announcement for the week…that and I am going to need a night of fun because I have two tests, a lab report, and 2 homeworks due this week.

I LOVE the cock

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My name is Benjamin Patrick Catlin, and I LOVE THE COCK. I love the cock so much, that I am planning on building a monument to the cock. It will be life-size, and incredibly life-like, modelled after my own cock. I have already purchased the half inch cube of marble with which to sculpt my masterpiece. When I am finished, you too shall worship the cock like I do.

I will now dialect on the masturbatory habits of the modern moose. See contrary to popular belief, the modern moose is a sexual dynamo, incapable of being sexually sated. I know, I have sampled some of this fine, erotic cuisine. The moose has evolved the capability to masturbate in order to keep itself from committing unspeakable acts of terror (i.e. alliances with squirrels, duck intimidation, goat slayings, etc.). I think I speak for us all when I say, “Thank you Moose! Thank you for evolving this saintly ability, keeping the natural balance of the forest the way it should be.”

I also have a midget fetish. Damn, them midgets is sexy. Swexy even. I think I’m going to start renting porn agian, except now it will be all midget porn. I’m talking midget threesomes, midget handjobs, midget on moose, whatever. My home will be a smorgasboard of midget sexual depravity. When I get married, I’m going to ask Lauren to act like a midget in the bedroom.

This has been a last gasp of independent Ben.

Thank you and goodnight…